I am feeling so happy today as it is All Hallows Eve, my favourate date in the calender year. The fact I am stuck in work is a bit of a downer but other than that got good things planned for today and the weekend as this is Friday. Off to Party at my sisters house then onto another party later then tomorrow I am chief bridesmaid at another sisters wedding although I am very nervous about this, I am just not comfy in a dress unless it is a 1940 or 1950 style.

Found out yesterday my step son is joining the Royal Scottish Fusalliers (not sure on spelling!) and although I am very proud of him I feel so sad and anxious that he is



a) leaving to join the army.

b) he might get hurt.



Of course, we are all supporting him in his decision which we all believe to be the right one but to be honest, I am just finding it hard to let go and realising suddenly, my little step son is not so little anymore, I want to wrap in up in cotton wall but I suppose we all have to let go at some stage. As a step mum it is hard for others to understand how close you become to your partners children and how much these children mean to you, the unconditional love thing keeps jumping up and bitting my bum. Not something I ever expected to feel.